Tuesday, August 23, 2016

One Day We Will Meet

I have wished
on every star
that has fallen
out of the sky.

I have prayed
every prayer
my lips
could speak.

I have looked
at every face
that came
my way,
hoping one
of them
would be the one
looking for me too.

But they weren't you.

I don't know when.
I don't know where.
But I do believe
you're still out there.

One day not too soon
I'm going to meet you
under a full moon
and we'll know
it was meant to be
because all this time
you were also looking
for me.

So I'll keep praying;
I'll keep wishing;
and I'll keep looking
and hoping
you're doing the same
because every breath
and every step
are just moments
away
from finding
you.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Alternate Universes

In another place,
another time
I am the woman
I dreamed I would be
and I am living
the life
that'll never be mine.

You're there
by my side,
keeping every promise
you made
and I am
exactly who I told you
I was.

I have it all.

Somewhere -
not here, not now -
my life is good
and I am so proud
of what we've become.

Somewhere,
some how
I am enough.

Sunday, August 7, 2016

The Shortness of You

22,958 days
was all you could stay
but it wasn't enough
for anyone who loves you.

I am back
from the edge
of the earth,
and your memory
is all that remains.

The ocean is not as blue,
the birds do not sing
the way they used to;
life has gone on
without you
but I cannot ignore
your absence.

Every second
I am here
and you are not
is a second
I hate
and wish did not exist
because life without you
is no good.

There is no sense
in the end,
no solace
in your silence.

22,958 days
is just not enough.

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Hollow Man

You said all the right words
with an easy smile
and a salesman's heart.

Did it surprise you
your words weren't enough
to bring me
to my knees,
flip my dress up,
change who I am,
turn me
into a cheap one-night stand
you could tell
your friends about?

The truth is out,
everyone knows
you're a smiling
Jack O' Lantern
with a hole
where your heart
should be.

You are a blip
in the heartbeat
of my memory -
nothing
I want
or that I lost.

Just another smile
in the crowd.


Sunday, July 31, 2016

When Fear Wins

I turned you on
like a light in the dark
and suddenly
the world felt
brighter than the sun.

But it terrified me -
the light
the heat
the burn of wanting you.

So I turned you off,
clipped the electric current
between us
like a bad breaker tripping
in the middle
of your favorite show
when the bill is paid.

Now I'm alone
and you found someone else
to turn you on
and tune you in.

This is my fault
my failure
my loss.





Saturday, July 30, 2016

Rejection

Blank screens
Empty call logs
Missed glances

Only memories 
of what never was.

We had a handful of minutes 
and promises,
nothing more -
you made sure of that. 

And now?
What is there to say?

No words are as loud
as the silence between us. 

I keep telling myself
it's better this way. 

Maybe tomorrow 
I'll believe it. 







Thursday, July 28, 2016

Check Mate?

Every sentence you speak
is like a line I wrote
twenty years ago
when someone asked me
what the perfect man
would say.

Your words move
through me like a tidal wave,
knocking me out
with the ebb and flow
of their syllables.

But what you say
is not the same
as what you do.

Anyone can talk
a good game.
I should know -
I do it too.

So what now?

The words have run out
and it's your move.